im slightly same condition wf a close fren of mine....
which is confuse in a star shape relationship...
1. my x.....
he is weird in my fren sight...n even my parents...
most of them wondering, how can i get into relationship with him...
now, im really regret... since he had done sumthing that had disturb my fren n family..
after v had broke up... im totally free... feeling liberty in my life..
he is a kind man , 1st i met him...
but now, wat can i say about him... is so childish..
i nvr think that, he could do all the useless things to hurt me... again n again
v r really hard 2 communicate...
i had given up in this relationship...
its considering a nightmare for me...
2. tall guy
he treats me so good, tat i have nvr been treated for...
im so surprise that, there is a man in this world that can so care 4 me...
i thank God tat i really enjoy the feeling of being loved...
he always care for me.... my feeling, my thinking.... me
he always do sweet things for me that is havent being asked frm me..
i really feel that im pampered... juz like a babe..
he is so gentle 2 me... n respect me...
but the most sad thing is.... i cant love him..
not bcoz of my family, sister....( i really dun care so much about them...)
but me....althogh my heart is so touched... but i didnt luv him..
i feel that im so selfish... i dun want 2 lost this guy who cares for me so much...
but, i dun love him.. im so casual with him...
but this is a really a spring dream of mine...
i will keep this deep down in my heart
3. skinny guy
he is so thin... looks like so unsecure...
he makes me wan2 sayang him, may be bcoz of his figure??
he is the 1 who score the highest marks frm my parents...
he got a very very good background, cert... family..
i like his family...
im not sure whether he likes me o not..
bcoz he is a kind of shy boy... n he never tell me about this..
mayb its juz the misunderstanding of me gua...
all i knw is: he is not my cup of tea...
no feel... the time v get 2gather is so natural...
so free, no burden, no shame...
its juz like best fren...
i like him 2 b my fren more than lover...
4. shorty
he is cute, but he is not a christian...
i dunno y.... i juz feel that he is the most stable guy among them..
he is hardworking... n wat i knw about him is not good thing at all...
anyway, i dun want 2 think about him anymore...
coz he is not christian, n v will have a very different future...
5. my love
there is a very big gap btwn us....
i have nvr think that v can get 2gather...
i really love him, but i wont let him knw ....
juz keep this love... deep down in my own heart..
so.... wat shall i do?
God, plz help me...
n i believe that God will make a way, where there seems to be no way...