我该怎么办

分手....
是因为他的脾气不好....
是因为他是坏人...

我究竟是爱他...
还是....爱好人?

我不知道该怎么办...
因为...
我只知道他是上帝带到我生命中的一个人...

我知道身边的人都是为我好....
我不想伤了他们的心...
但是我的心呢...?
还有我所爱的心呢?

我知道这一段爱很不容易...
可能是偏见...或是我无知...
我好累...

我不想和家人硬碰硬...
因为我是真的还入世不深...
很多事都不懂...

但是...我真的很爱很爱他....
我不想离开他...
可是, 我开始受不了了...

为什么要我来承受...
这一切的一切...
我好痛苦...好心痛....

神啊!!!
你是掌权者... 你是主...
不管怎样... 我都要跟着你...

bleeding love

my heart is so heavy...
is like the song by leona lewis.. bleeding love...

im not feeling sad about myself...
but for my love...

when i notice or knowing more and more about him...
his past... his love story or so on...
my heart really feel the pain as he feels...

when i ever knw the news about his 1st love with her 1st love husband...
im so interested in it...
my mind is persueing me... get to knw more...
but my heart is juz like bleeding...
i felt so hard to breath...
my heart is so pain...
how can she treat my love like this....

when i ever saw any stuff about his 1st wife
all the notes, dairy, short msg......picture... smiling pictures...
its so hard to control my tears which seems to drop soonly...
all about their past...
either good nor bad, hapi nor sad, ......
when i heard him says: im so feel....
my heart is bleeding again....
i cant do anything for him
all of my mind is full of:
how can she treat my love like this...
how can she leaves all the pain, memories ....
by juz leaving him alone...

i cant take all this...
bcoz i love my love so much....

stop it! stop it!
i dun wan2 knw all about this anymore...
plz........ never ever appear on my mind again...
i cant take it...

im so helpless...
wat can i do....?!
to make my love hapi...
to make my love always fills wf joy....
forget all of this....

even me myself...
im not the main character of these love story....
feels so hard to forget....
how can i wish that my love can forget all this...

i keep telling myself...
i must love him...
i wan2 fill his mind full of our memories...
no longer pain, but joy...
no longer sad, but hapi...

can i overcome all this, Lord Jesus?
plz, give me the strength...
i need it so much

tq

i knw sumtimes im too dependent....
especially to u....
i oso dunno why...
my heart is always missing u....
u knw,i miss no man like u before....

u r the only man,
i wish to c everyday...
i wish to call all the day....
n i hope u understand my feeling....
i juz wish 2 c u....touch u.... feel u...

full of u

while we were going out the door which was so much ppl around...
u holding my hand... which was a easily break bond btw us.... T.T
but later u hold me into ur embrace...
i felt warm, sweet, hapi, loved....

when we look at the beautiful fireworks 2gather....
i felt there is hope....
our love will prevail...
as long as u r with me...( n i knw u r )

when u r sick (running nose)...
my heart was so heavy....
i hope i can do something 2 make u feel better....
(althought thats not work finally... )
n i wish that,
the one who with running nose is me....
i cant leave u so painful, which i cant do anything.... u knw?

later although u fell not well...
but u still care for my leg....
im so hapi when u carrying me...
walk thru the ppl, the cars, the road...
tat i have set up my mind....
u r my man....
i wont leave u..... i luv u

later when v sit on the floor....
i really felt that im a princess...
n u r my guarding angel....
i knw u felt cold....
but u still choose to protect me frm the cool wind...
u protect me like a precious pearl in ur arms...

tq...
n i thank God for u....
u r my guardian angel who sent by God...
n i will appreciate everything of u.....

收手啦...

就当我求求你...
不要再找我了...
不要再烦我了....

我和你再没有任何的关系...
你根本不是我的谁....

我真的很讨厌你,
你究竟要什么...
难道你要我死?
还是要我的钱..?
为什么还不放手?

不要再跟我讲废话了...
因为我已经有喜欢的人了...

我希望你能祝福我们,
而不是再来伤害和破坏...

为什么是我

为什么 是我

为什么要爱上我, 我不要你的爱护... 我不需要..
你真的让我有很大的压力, 我的人生, 一切都被你给毁了...
难道你还要坚持下去吗? 还要继续的伤害我吗?
难道你这样, 让大家都好过吗?

为什么? 我真的很后悔认识你
我甚至还埋怨神, 为什么要让我受这样的苦?
当我们在一起时, 你不珍惜我...
而且还一次又一次的答应, 忘记...反反覆覆...
当我提出分手时, 你也一样, 不断的伤害我...


我真的觉得, 你根本都不在意我的感受...
当我求你别再烦我, 你都不理睬, 还是坚持的来伤害我...
我不但不爱你了, 甚至还讨厌你...
我祷告神,这个世界上, 我们势不两立...

因为你, 让我添了许多麻烦,
我很不高兴... 在我一生人里, 这一次是我最想放弃人生的一次...
我觉得人生不再快乐, 不再自由...
过着一种被人监视, 被人捆绑的日子...
每天都提心吊胆...每天都不好过...

就当我求你, 当着我们从没认识过...
可以吗? 你要多少钱, 我都会给你...

xy- omg.....!!!

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相信=我们的承偌，和上帝的带领
包容=你对我的不好,你的负面，软弱
忍耐=我们现在的关系
盼望=我们的将来
想您喔^^