bleeding love

my heart is so heavy...
is like the song by leona lewis.. bleeding love...

im not feeling sad about myself...
but for my love...

when i notice or knowing more and more about him...
his past... his love story or so on...
my heart really feel the pain as he feels...

when i ever knw the news about his 1st love with her 1st love husband...
im so interested in it...
my mind is persueing me... get to knw more...
but my heart is juz like bleeding...
i felt so hard to breath...
my heart is so pain...
how can she treat my love like this....

when i ever saw any stuff about his 1st wife
all the notes, dairy, short msg......picture... smiling pictures...
its so hard to control my tears which seems to drop soonly...
all about their past...
either good nor bad, hapi nor sad, ......
when i heard him says: im so feel....
my heart is bleeding again....
i cant do anything for him
all of my mind is full of:
how can she treat my love like this...
how can she leaves all the pain, memories ....
by juz leaving him alone...

i cant take all this...
bcoz i love my love so much....

stop it! stop it!
i dun wan2 knw all about this anymore...
plz........ never ever appear on my mind again...
i cant take it...

im so helpless...
wat can i do....?!
to make my love hapi...
to make my love always fills wf joy....
forget all of this....

even me myself...
im not the main character of these love story....
feels so hard to forget....
how can i wish that my love can forget all this...

i keep telling myself...
i must love him...
i wan2 fill his mind full of our memories...
no longer pain, but joy...
no longer sad, but hapi...

can i overcome all this, Lord Jesus?
plz, give me the strength...
i need it so much

tq

i knw sumtimes im too dependent....
especially to u....
i oso dunno why...
my heart is always missing u....
u knw,i miss no man like u before....

u r the only man,
i wish to c everyday...
i wish to call all the day....
n i hope u understand my feeling....
i juz wish 2 c u....touch u.... feel u...