bleeding love

my heart is so heavy...
is like the song by leona lewis.. bleeding love...

im not feeling sad about myself...
but for my love...

when i notice or knowing more and more about him...
his past... his love story or so on...
my heart really feel the pain as he feels...

when i ever knw the news about his 1st love with her 1st love husband...
im so interested in it...
my mind is persueing me... get to knw more...
but my heart is juz like bleeding...
i felt so hard to breath...
my heart is so pain...
how can she treat my love like this....

when i ever saw any stuff about his 1st wife
all the notes, dairy, short msg......picture... smiling pictures...
its so hard to control my tears which seems to drop soonly...
all about their past...
either good nor bad, hapi nor sad, ......
when i heard him says: im so feel....
my heart is bleeding again....
i cant do anything for him
all of my mind is full of:
how can she treat my love like this...
how can she leaves all the pain, memories ....
by juz leaving him alone...

i cant take all this...
bcoz i love my love so much....

stop it! stop it!
i dun wan2 knw all about this anymore...
plz........ never ever appear on my mind again...
i cant take it...

im so helpless...
wat can i do....?!
to make my love hapi...
to make my love always fills wf joy....
forget all of this....

even me myself...
im not the main character of these love story....
feels so hard to forget....
how can i wish that my love can forget all this...

i keep telling myself...
i must love him...
i wan2 fill his mind full of our memories...
no longer pain, but joy...
no longer sad, but hapi...

can i overcome all this, Lord Jesus?
plz, give me the strength...
i need it so much

tq

i knw sumtimes im too dependent....
especially to u....
i oso dunno why...
my heart is always missing u....
u knw,i miss no man like u before....

u r the only man,
i wish to c everyday...
i wish to call all the day....
n i hope u understand my feeling....
i juz wish 2 c u....touch u.... feel u...

full of u

while we were going out the door which was so much ppl around...
u holding my hand... which was a easily break bond btw us.... T.T
but later u hold me into ur embrace...
i felt warm, sweet, hapi, loved....

when we look at the beautiful fireworks 2gather....
i felt there is hope....
our love will prevail...
as long as u r with me...( n i knw u r )

when u r sick (running nose)...
my heart was so heavy....
i hope i can do something 2 make u feel better....
(althought thats not work finally... )
n i wish that,
the one who with running nose is me....
i cant leave u so painful, which i cant do anything.... u knw?

later although u fell not well...
but u still care for my leg....
im so hapi when u carrying me...
walk thru the ppl, the cars, the road...
tat i have set up my mind....
u r my man....
i wont leave u..... i luv u

later when v sit on the floor....
i really felt that im a princess...
n u r my guarding angel....
i knw u felt cold....
but u still choose to protect me frm the cool wind...
u protect me like a precious pearl in ur arms...

tq...
n i thank God for u....
u r my guardian angel who sent by God...
n i will appreciate everything of u.....

收手啦...

就当我求求你...
不要再找我了...
不要再烦我了....

我和你再没有任何的关系...
你根本不是我的谁....

我真的很讨厌你,
你究竟要什么...
难道你要我死?
还是要我的钱..?
为什么还不放手?

不要再跟我讲废话了...
因为我已经有喜欢的人了...

我希望你能祝福我们,
而不是再来伤害和破坏...

为什么是我

为什么 是我

为什么要爱上我, 我不要你的爱护... 我不需要..
你真的让我有很大的压力, 我的人生, 一切都被你给毁了...
难道你还要坚持下去吗? 还要继续的伤害我吗?
难道你这样, 让大家都好过吗?

为什么? 我真的很后悔认识你
我甚至还埋怨神, 为什么要让我受这样的苦?
当我们在一起时, 你不珍惜我...
而且还一次又一次的答应, 忘记...反反覆覆...
当我提出分手时, 你也一样, 不断的伤害我...


我真的觉得, 你根本都不在意我的感受...
当我求你别再烦我, 你都不理睬, 还是坚持的来伤害我...
我不但不爱你了, 甚至还讨厌你...
我祷告神,这个世界上, 我们势不两立...

因为你, 让我添了许多麻烦,
我很不高兴... 在我一生人里, 这一次是我最想放弃人生的一次...
我觉得人生不再快乐, 不再自由...
过着一种被人监视, 被人捆绑的日子...
每天都提心吊胆...每天都不好过...

就当我求你, 当着我们从没认识过...
可以吗? 你要多少钱, 我都会给你...

xy- omg.....!!!

yy，xx今天要开始在教会打回鼓来事奉与赞美敬拜上帝了^^.怎么啦！？还对xx闷闷不乐吗？T.T.......一直有很多comment写在yy的post,xx不知yy喜不喜欢，但是xx知道yy只想先add回xx，还没有心情看到或联络xx，所以xx也只好等yy的回应，只能在fb post comment and communicate...
相信=我们的承偌，和上帝的带领
包容=你对我的不好,你的负面，软弱
忍耐=我们现在的关系
盼望=我们的将来
想您喔^^

wat the..yy &xx

yy，昨晚xx是要来找您谈问您为何打给我妈的事。我也是刚刚下摩多后才遇见您。如果我是在看您的话当我看到您开车时肯定躲起来，决不会向昨晚走出来让您看到。可是当我叫您是时您却不理我。您该不会是乱想些什么吧？我昨晚其实在下摩多后打算叫叫您，如果睡着了我就回家。yy从来完全没有要问问xx弄个明白(T.T)r然后就自己胡思乱想就做自己的决定(still rmb after 2 week i come find u? coz 1 of tis reason v broke up, coz u nvr ask me and do ur own decision. during 2 week actually u oso can call me if u hav any unconfortable thing, but u jus say jus wait for my calling. wait is not ur type as i know.)

i know call u u oso reject, yesterday i can follow u to find u explain wat happen actually, but i no do tat coz u don wan me follow, btw u maybe will think i try to cover my self wf other excuse. i don hope u think like tat, so yesterday i jus sms u only.

if u ask me now, i say i trust u at well. wat u think and do to me i don know, so trust is wat can i passion keep waiting. 爱=包容，相信，盼望，忍耐。我不知道现在该如何，所以包容，相信，盼望，忍耐是我唯一能做的，也是我对我们的的关系，我对您的爱让您相信我是认真的。

如果您问我到底要如何相信我，我会说：
容易的到的东西的确是不会珍惜，等到失去后才知道什么是最好。
您离开我后，我才清楚，知道也体会到您就是我的好(好=女+子)。yy这是xx一生以来第一次从人和自己中体会到的事。您说相信我对您的爱，说原谅我但就不愿和我复合，因为您是怕我又向以前一样不爽的待您和最重要的是我不会珍惜您吧？您的相信是口讲或心里话我不知，可是我相信您，因为我对神，您和自己都有相信，是发从自心里。

光说是没用的吧对您来说，所以我知道您为何要对我谈条件和对我有要求。我听您了，明白了，行动了，就是了^^

if some one ask me, i say if i can be gal few days, i think i could understand, know and 体会 U, i love wan. all ur feeling, situation and emotion.

原谅我 tis song i think u like the lyric bcoz the lyric is same as how u wan to say to me rite ?

too sad lar this song, how bout tis:

请听听 jay chow给我一手歌的时间，那是我现在的心情和想要和您表达的。but the lyric jus got 70 % is my heart voice, u guess ur self which 1 is my voice lol then ^^

娆燕婷的我在乎(两面专集)tis song is quick 80% of my heart voice

看来昨晚发生的事后您不会在短期内原谅我的。我只好忍耐，盼望，相信您。您xx原谅我的呼声，是我期待的。